I think the worst thing you could do with a chronic illness is focus on getting better. It will tear you down physically because you will mistake a good week as a “recovery” and it will tear you down mentally because you will eventually relapse. Focus on being as healthy as you possibly can. Make the most of it. Live in this moment and not next months. Slowly you will see your mental and physical health improve. Its funny how we never find the things we search for.